So now I get to play in a recital for my cello lessons on Jan. 20th. Bah. Shathem and my cello teacher ganged up on me. Bah. My instructor assured me that he would rake me over the coals for the song. We. Shall. See. I just don't see these things the way I should. Shathem was asking "do you have stage fright?" No. Eric asked "Do you think it is too easy?" and while related that is not exactly the problem either.

The actual level of the material is not really important - hell at this point I am planning on putting much simpler stuff on stage with the metal band (still between names). For the recital the actual level is not so important as I want to play something that I have to bust my ass to get. For me the recital is (or at least for me should be) a celebration of accomplishment, a real accomplishment, something I have to put in a little extra effort to suceed at. Taking time to practice the same-ole-stuff is not something I have any desire to celebrate.

Brett see's it (as probably do most people) as a 'snapshot' of where you are at a given time over your learning curve. I am far more demanding than that. I can see where I am at, and I can see how much I am learning, and while it is all good and not something I want to downplay to any extent; it is not something I want to go out on a limb and share either. It is just standard - every day - day in day out - lessons material.

My opinion however is irrelevent in this matter - my family and my instructor think I should do it (without any real thought for what I might actually want to do), and so I will jump through the hoops as they see fit. Bah.